Love Affair With Spirituality
17 06 2008
What was your spiritual awakening like? Mine was nothing short of a brilliant love affair.
It started very subtly, but I knew the attraction was there. It was beautiful, mysterious and loving. I started to think more and more about it each day … I just couldn’t shake it off. Everywhere I looked, it was there, in one form or another. I tried to talk myself out of it, telling myself I had gone completely nuts and there was no way anyone around me would be able to accept this. Yet the harder I fought it, the more irresistable it became.
By the time I’d received my first attunement, I had become completely infuatuated with it. My energies shifted BIG time. I couldn’t eat nor sleep well and my body felt like it got hit by a truck - yet something inside me was glowing and pulsating with love and joy. I dreaded going to work as my job had become totally meaningless. People around me didn’t seem to talk sense. I became worried about what’s happening to me and started to confide in friends. Supportive friends would nod with understanding and say “listen to your heart” while the not-so-supportive ones would frown and say “wake up, you’re losing yourself”. I became emotional and erratic, crying at the drop of a hat at one moment, then feeling elated the next moment, and then feeling a sense of peace all of a sudden. It was horrible and terrific at the same time.
My love affair with spirituality a.k.a. awakening a.k.a. massive energetic shifts lasted about a month. It subsided Just as mysteriously as it came. I am now able to work, eat, sleep and be at peace with myself without having to bawl my eyes out. The infatuation is gone, but in its place there’s a new feeling that’s deeper, fuller and so much more stable. I feel a sense of commitment, support, awareness and purpose. The brilliant blinding flashes have subsided, but there’s a permanent warm glowy light that remains within.
I can never be the same person I was before my love affair with spirituality, and it feels wonderful. 
Blessings,
Irene
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Irene,
Welcome to That which is beyond everything. Blessings on your Journey. Christine.
Hi Christine, thanks!
Wow…I’m still waiting for mine to come.
Hi Chris … mine just hit me like lightning out of clear blue sky, LOL! Yours probably came in the form of your beautiful relationship with your family.
That is a wonderful story, and fascinating to read. I wonder if I’ll ever get something like that hehe. Thanks for sharing
Albert, glad you liked it. Thanks!
Hello dere,
Myne iz az stetd by mai neim, BabaliciouS.
Hi Babalicious, thanks for stopping by! Nice blog.
Hi Irene, I dig your post and thank you for putting it out there. My decades of restless spiritual yearning finally came to an end when “the love affair within” was revealed to me, and I surrendered to it. The implications are nothing less than astounding!
Hi Bill, thanks for stopping by! It’s amazing isn’t it when we just surrender ourselves to Spirit? Wishing you all the best on your journey!
Before I officially started my spiritual journey, I was just wandering aimlessly through my life and not very happy with it at all. I had spiritual knowings inside of that I didn’t share with anyone because I didn’t know anyone else that “knew” what I was born knowing about God. About 12 years ago, a friend introduced me to a small Unity church and the true exploration began. Within a few months, I found a class that opened up my world to an explosion of new knowledge and Self-awareness. For awhile, I was just confused because everything that I was learning was so new and outside of my small existence. Then one day, I woke up in love with myself, the world and spirituality. I rode that wave of deep joy and love for awhile before it evened out into contentment and peace with my life. In the beginning that joy was almost overwhelming and I want to know how do I get back there. It was the most awesome place that I have ever been.
Patricia, that was lovely, thanks for sharing! I definitely felt confused and overwhelmed for a while too, unsure what was happening to me at such a quick pace. It was so new and strange that I got worried … but there’s a deep sense of joy that was just awesome. I am thankful that I’ve been given the opportunity to experience the joy of awakening.
It’s interesting how it starts to subside after the awakening.
I’ve experienced much of the same you have. In addition to it, the world feels more alive. Colors are brighter, foods taste better, sounds are richer. It’s like someone turned up the “juiciness” knob on life and everything is infinitely more wonderful.
The mind goes quiet and one begins to see the infinite perfection in all that is. It’s beyond judgment, beyond the mind.
What a life, eh?
Yes Ariel, what a life, LOL!
It has subsided for me but on occasions I still feel those little energy surges. Sometimes they hit me when I least expected them! I do really enjoy the peace and quiet after those surges … they are beautiful moments.
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I agree, Irene. Our relationship with Spirit is nothing less than a love affair–with self, Self, and all existence.
Many blessings to you and all you hold dear,
CG
Thank you CG, and blessings to you too!
My own awakening came in a much more violent way.
It just crashed on me, with all it’s wild force and made me vomit, scream, dig holes and smoke franticly. It’s was horrid, but at the same time I felt all this energy rounding up on my bowels. It was… perfect emotions. It was wild, like having sex with an force of nature.
My own energies are very alike my awakening, wild and uncontrollable.
Yes, you could call this love.
Wow Krig … I don’t know if I should be thankful that my own experience wasn’t half as violent as yours, but I do recognize that we all experience awakening in ways that serves us best. I’m pretty sure that was just a start for me - I wonder what next! Yeah, the feelings are just about as strange and strong as love.